Today I believe.
That seems a silly statement. It's just that lately I've been trapping myself in a lot of mental boxes, then getting frustrated by the mazes I run to escape them. Needless, really. But how do you stop that?
I don't know.
What I do know is that the heart of the matter lies in my own perceptions of myself, in my abilities, in my capacities. I am only capable of what I tell myself I am capable of - and lately I've been coming to the sum of "not a lot." I re-started this blog because I had a glimpse of that possibility. Today I return because the lesson has been driven home again (doubtless it will need to be many times over).
So today I reassessed where I am at and what I am. There is inherent disappointment in that, but it may also function as a compass. I have always been my own roadblock - but perhaps there is a way to cease such self-deprecation and work towards the life I envision. One where I write.
I haven't been idle - new jobs to pay the bills and releasing a social media storm have sort of drained of late. The writing calls, and I will answer.
Because today I believe.
